Getting into Oxbridge

Why the hell did my mom raise me in South Korea?

Korean education system is so fucked up it can’t possibly be reformed.
A revolution may not suffice, either. A speedy evacuation seems to me the only solution for he who is troubled by insatiable thirst for real learning, or he who just don’t want to be stupid.

After 6 + 3 + almost 3 years of elite education in Korea, even a fairly devoted student as I, one is left without any type of genuine understanding of history, appreciation of words, scholarly attitude and academic interest.

I’m fucked up. Pretty much every aspect of the categorization indicates how seriously fucked up I am. Probably that I am a Catholic is the only thing I should not dare desecrate in some sodden saddish self pitying blog of mine.

And guess what, I fucked up my SAT as well. Why the hell did I get one wrong in Writing Section? And why is a son complaining that his father don’t give a ride to hitchhikers ‘disloyal’? That’s fucking irrational.
I mean, the answer should be ‘irrational’. I got two wrong already and I hated my essay. (One, one of my examples was Christopher Columbus. Two, my hand writing looked like a trail of crazy cats piss.)

So originally I started this post to remark on the movie I watched earlier today : The History Boys.
Some of the ‘boys’ were cute but for the most part I took note of the dynamic air and diverse methods of British school. Of course, fictions idealize, and the movie must have been a well fashioned rendition of British schools. Still, how they get to read so much and discuss so much in school! It’s like a comparison of juicy medium tenderloin to a stale black pudding. And yet they get to hang out so much.

As a movie, The History of Boys isn’t that impressive, though it’s decent quality and acceptable fun stuff.
As for the life in the movie – wgwoeigheo..

I want to quit the World History class from Abduction and Assault Academy and just study and read on my own. Its a pity I cant draw out of the class by myself and get a refund. Just read AP materials for G&P, Histories, go to Stat class, read books on my own. Watch some movies for fun, or flair in the interview, and read again, classic novels and philosophy books, ones that elevate my moral sentiment and shine the rusted intellect, or ones that allow me to live a life of another for a couple of hours. Eat little and work out, sleep late and wake up late. Drink with friends time to time and just live the life of a free spirited person : All these that will never happen at least in one year.

3 weeks left

I am taking 5 new APs this year.
That leaves me with loads of reading material and tight hagwon schedule.

I have been spending most of my free time reading books, watching TV series, mostly NCIS these days, and ………ing.

Movies!!!

No, I want to leave an account of the things that have been bugging me for these couple of weeks or days.

1. SAT teacher abduction and assault – this R Academy that’s been all over the news and papers is the one that I have recently started attending for AP World History. I feel that I am almost abetting a criminal act, or even a potential accomplice, since the academy was ordered to close by the court. Plus I don’t even like the air of the class. One, having someone prescribe to me what knowledge I should or shouldn’t have is never an enjoyable way of learning. Two, bad location, bad environment.

2. G Problem – Is it me or is it universal? I can’t seem to like anyone that likes me first neither can I express something first, be it a rejection or proposition. What’s unique about this particular case is that I have a clear understanding of where I am going – a dead end.

3. From Sheltered to Grounded. Mom won’t let me meet anyone or go anywhere without reporting to her every five mins. I don’t know how she’ll be able to hold up once I go to college.

4. Stagnation!!! Three weeks to lose it!!!

hello

Wistful, Today

I’m in no mood to do anything really

Smitten, No.

Couple of things to restore my tired mind and body.

1. First I must say that I am pleasantly surprised by a couple of recent college results. This year is critical but I don’t think the bar is too high. All that I need is here. Honesty.

2. I am actually glad about the way things turned out for me as far as winter debate events go. I haven’t had much time for myself. I didn’t read much probably since 14 – when I spent nights savoring the best of men’s mind or more often fighting the remaining pages. I need to read and think more instead of speaking from the tip of the tongue to fight off some ‘debaters’. Fluency and instinct puts one into the league but doesn’t drive her up to the top. So I’m updating my reading list these days.

3. Christmas – Albeit cheeky and saccharine, I have to admit: I love my friends and I am so glad that I have this type of support to assist me, sail through the happy and unhappy times together. My family, friends and teachers are more than I could have ever asked for every time I prayed.

4. I need to exercise T.T Things I’ve put on during finals won’t go away without effort.

Disclaimers – Ha….
how do I spell this out

Anyway, Happy Holidays!

Merry Christmas

Christmas means the mass of Christ.
I’ll spend the day true to the original meaning of the day.
Actually it’d be a more precise and whole truth to say that I am forced to spend the day reading and praying.

Anyway, Happy Holiday.

p.s … So many people are surprising me these days – Jihye from elementary school, friends in school, my cousin brother, SM and even me.

Heartbeat

Dejection – sex? Or what? A call for honesty

Concept of artistic beauty

Discipline and Fantasy

music drug

hanging low

what hurts the most

can’t sleep

a moron and a real moron

Studying Biology

Just found out that I still have the chance to save the grade if I get over 90. College. I am soooo not sleeping tonight. Three more chapters and Computer Science to go.

Tiens-toi tranquille.

Arrete de te lever et de t’asseoir comme ca et tiens-toi tranquille.